Friends...

I know life isn't fair.

I'm tired of being such a great friend to people and then getting backstabbed.

I know know ones perfect,but after so many times it gets old.

I'm tired of being completely honest with everyone and then they are not honest with me.

I'm sick of doing things for people and then them not being appreciative or returning the favor.

I'm tired of being there for ppl to most possible extent that i can but then if i need someone;no ones there for me.

I'm tired of losing all these people for no apparent reason.

Maybe theres a reason people treat me the way they do.

Maybe they dont realize.

But when i tell them how i feel honestly straight to there face.They deny everything and believe they're right.

I'm not going to stop serving people the way i do...just because they treat me poorly...

but after a while it gets old...of being treated like crapt...and not like a friend should be treated.

How's come i make so much time for other people but no one ever makes time for me.

I'm a good friend.So why am i losing so many people?

Why does is it that no one cares anymore?

I only have about 5 people in this world that i can honestly say that are my true friends.

What happened to the type of friends you spent everyday with,told everything to,and who just knew you for who you are.Someone that doesnt leave and is encouraging.

It's alright that i want to be loved and have friends.

But honestly......it's so frustrating to be there for people so much and be an amazing friend and then be ditched on,lied to,backstabbed...ect.

It sucks.

I feel alone in a way.

Words cannot even express how i feel these days.

Maybe i dont need alot of friends?

Maybe i dont need close friends?

Maybe i just need myself and God?

Maybe the people that are in my life never were friends?

Maybe life isn't about friendships.

Maybe this is all wrong....pretty sure it is.

I'll never know the exact reasons of why friendships always end.