I didn't know where i stood...but i need help in order to stand.

sam,me,and charaee

The awesome game of ninja!

Amazing people i will never foreget!

Do you ever sit and wonder why your struggling so much to live for christ?And continuously beat yourself up about it..This has all been on my mind lately.Last week i went to a camp called timber wolf lake;its affiliated with Younglife.It's an amazing camp,full of encouragement,fun,friends,and laughter.I cried when i had to leave because i knew coming home would be a struggle.I'd fall back into desires that i don't want to fall back into.Well i have been home so far,but have not fallen into desires..atleast not yet.Hopefully i wont at all.We'll see. :)

At camp i learned that i need to fully trust God with my future,that i need to fully live for God by being obedient, and to know that God knows my heart FULLY..God knows that i DO NOT want to have the sinful desires i had before i came to camp.....By going to camp...i was encouraged a bit...and i really needed that...and some reminders.At camp during cabin time...I got holy spirit laughter.all the girls looked at me like i was nuts...bc everyone was crying over the message that had just impacted them. I explained to the girls that holy spirit laughter is a form of healing from God.And i apologized for laughing while everyone else was crying but i know i couldnt control it haha.but it was how God wanted me healed!!!AND IT WAS AMAZING!!!I COMPLETELY NEEDED IT!!! :-) i couldnt stop smiling after it!!!haha.it was soo good.i was SOO SMILEY ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!! :-) God works in very mysterious ways. :)

Going back to camp was entirely different though.I came being a christian unlike before....My veiws of things were sooo different..and honestly once i got there...i didn't want to be a camper...i wanted to SERVE!!!!! :-) God's been speaking to my heart recently that i need to go back next summer and serve for a month....or go to a camp in another country to serve!!!Which would be so awesome! :-) and btw:We played an awesome game called ninja at camp!!!Super fun! :-) I MISS AND LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!! :-)